I Want to Talk About Love

I want to talk about love. Unfortunately, the English language falls short when it comes to love. There are so many kinds of love, and feelings people think are love. "I love my new purse"; "I love your haircut"; "I love this ice cream"; you love your dog, we love our parents, spouses, children, etc. But, is love actually a feeling though? When the bible talks about love, is it referring to a feeling? Love you neighbor as yourself. Do you always love yourself? Do you always have a fond affection to towards yourself? I know I don’t, sometimes I hate myself, especially when I fall short and miss the mark. When God tells the prophet "go and love your wife", is He telling him to have fond feelings towards his wife? No, the bible is talking about action.

The past few weeks I have been blessed to see love in action, by the one who created love itself. I had been in a dark place for some reason. I felt depressed, I didn’t want to read the bible, I was very cranky due to health issues, I was sucked into playing videos games on my phone every day, my prayers were lacking. Then I started seeing bible verses everywhere that were pertaining to my situation and about love. This happens to me often, providential things, but I was so far in the dark I didn’t care enough to pay attention. More verses and teaching about love were coming to me, they were smacking me in the face now. I was being convicted. I had lost my sense of love; I wasn’t acting in love and I wasn’t being a loveable person.

Early Thursday morning about 6am (7/11/24) I was working on my computer and just getting ready to go back and lay down, when I happened upon an article about archaeology, which I am fond of. It was 10 archeological mysteries, so I decided to read it quickly, I came upon the Jars of the Laos Plain, and as soon as I saw them the spirit told me these are jars that were used for sacrificing children to demons. As I read on in the article, it stated human remains where found in a great number of jars. I decided to google about these jars I had never heard of and the Wikipedia article said most of the remains found in the jars belonged to adolescents. And I just began to cry, one because I was confused but marveled that God revealed this to me and it was confirmed, but, two I was mourning for those poor children. Those people lacked love so much so, that they murdered their own children for their personal gain. And I thought wait, people still murder their own children for their personal gain, so I looked up how many abortions are performed each year, and the number was 73 million induced abortions each year. That is an unfathomable number to me. Seventy three million children are murdered each year by their own mothers… This world is dark, so dark these people cannot even see. They don’t know love, maybe they have never received love. Just as I, these past few weeks, have not been able to see love, but Baruch HaShem I am connected to Him.

I watch Rise on Fire with PD, and his whole live stream that day seemed to be directed directly towards me, every verse he read, every word he spoke, it was reaching directly towards me and pulling me up from the darkness, convicting me of my own sin and lack of love. At the end he always prays and excellent prayer, and I joined in that prayer with my whole heart. I said to God how is it that everything this past week just seemed to be aimed directly for me, and he said I left the 99 to come after you. and by the end I was on my knees in the bathroom just pouring out my confessions, my heart and my relief. I was ugly crying, in awe, that the creator of the universe, came after a sinner like me, that He sees me where I am. When I am disobedient, he loves me, in His actions. He made things happen in this world to reach a lowly person like me!

Now I understand my job; to leave everything behind and go find those other people lost in darkness and love them that way. We have to walk through darkness to see the light. Our God is glorious, he active, he is present, he is the God who sees. But we forget, this world is so dark, we forget. And every time this happens to me I am just in awe; in awe that he continues to care for me even though I keep straying. In awe that out of the 7 billion people on this planet he cares enough to come after me. I understand God is outside of time even though we are in it, but the fact that his love is so great enough to care for each one of us on a personal level. We need to help people to see this.

We spend too much time arguing about who is right and who is wrong. Jews vs. Muslims vs. Christians vs. Messianic, and we don’t spend enough time in love. I challenge you today, next time you find yourself judging someone, reach out to them instead. Next time you see someone sinning, go and talk to them. It could be your best friend or a complete stranger. God says be ye holy for I am holy, meaning be different than the world. He doesn’t say be perfect because I am perfect. Holy, set apart, different. The world judges, God loves. Are you ready to live out the love of God?